Christmas time!!! 

And the time passes very fast, we almost have 5 months "together" in our way. Only one more year and my baby is gonna be here, and we can make true many of our dreams together =D

I´m waiting for that moment with all my heart, even when I feel nervous, it´s more my happiness and my anxiety to see him and feel his warm hug.

The last days we argued much cause I took his advices in a wrong way and cause maybe I never expected him to tell me all this serious things about my future and tell me my defects cause I thought in his eyes I was perfect, but that is not true nobody is perfect. I made him lost his patience with me and tell me that is tired to try to explain me the things, I know I need to mature and soon, he loves my sweetness and innocence but I know he doesn´t wanna marry with a kid, also after talk with my best friend I knew he was right and all his intention was give me a good advice for my future life.

He told me I´m perfect for him but in this working world I need to be 100% perfect to compete and find a good job, which I love to do and I´m good, finally mi amor my intention never was argue with you, this happens only sometimes and I think is not bad cause all couples have argue, but the difference is that we can´t separated more than one day, and we always learn a good lesson that make us grow up as persons. Tomorrow is christmas eve and my baby wanna spend it with me learning about my tradition and my family, maybe we are not together this special night sweetie, but I´m gonna pray to baby jesus to gives me the best gift in the next year, and that we can keep together more more more time....I know this gonna be a special christmas eve cause my baby is gonna be with me like always in the dinstance, I just keep having faith :) Merry Christmas mi amor!!!! 

Happy 100일 Mi Amor

Yesterday my babito and I fulfill 100 days, he made me a very nice surprise, wearing a bear suit he started singing some lyrics written by himself about me and our relationship. The sweetest bear in the world was standing in front of me and I could only smile and don´t talk cause I didn´t wannna make him feel nervous but inside of me I wanted to run toward him, give him a big hug and then kiss him.

But that wasn´t everything, he also bought me red roses =D I was so happy, those are my first roses from a guy, but these are even more important cause he´s gonna be my husband too hihihi...;)

I prepared for him a photo with our hands together making a heart, we sayed when he comes to my country we´re gonna take lots of photos of our hands together...meanwhile I had to do this one, nothing is impossible if we wanna stay together.

I´m happy cause even after we had some problems and discussions we are still together fighting againts time to keep our love fresh and continue falling in love each day, cause this is how he is, and this is how he teach me to be every day, and I´m very lucky to have the best boyfriend and man in the world, I know he is not perfect, cause nobody can be perfect but he is very close to be one.

I hope we can still together 100, 200, 300 days more and write how happy I am to be with him, but that depends on the two of us and our desire to stay together even though the distance separates us FOR NOW. Don´t worry mi amor soon very soon we are gonna be together and we will be able to do everything that we have dreamed.

His time..

Mi amor I don´t pretend to own your time it´s just that I miss you so much and I just want to feel you near me because the whole time you work I miss you so much. I think after all that we talk i need more, you was right cause I was getting used to spend all my time with you even there were times when you didn´t sleep well because of me and I felt guilty.

Poor my babito all days sleeping bad, but you know something, in the future I won´t sleep neither watching your face while u sleep like a sweet baby, this days also I have to go back to school and almost all my time is gonna be in my tasks, but I will made a time to see u on skype, cause it´s not the same when we just chat on line. As we said when the days pass and we don´t see us it´s better cause we miss us very much, and we long for your friday night and my friday morning.

Many couples don´t have this problem but we do, I think ldl is just for brave people who dare to wait until that day when u can hug your true love, but also it´s a true love, a love that don´t see physical appearance but the soul and the true feelings, those feelings that you made me discover day by day.

I believe that if our love is able to resist the distance and time it´s able to everything, even in the worst days that normal couples can resist.

We yearn with love our wedding day when my whole family knows you and your family knows me, the day when I will be yours and you will be mine in front of God and our loved ones, so baby let´s keep in touch like we do, that every day with you is sweet for me, and every day I realized how much I wanna spend my life with you, cause I make you happy and you make me happy =D.

Meeting mum

Finally my babito had a free week for vacations, amd as all  years mum went to see him and spend the whole week with him, I was nervous cause he told me before that mum knew about me already, so I was very very nervous but finally when she was there I wanted see her, and say hi mum.

He told me that mum is shy and maybe she didn´t want me to see her, but at least I could see her cooking and hearing her laugh, she said that I´m better that his exes and that I´m very shining, I wanted tell her many things, but I don´t speak her language and she doesn´t speak english so babito had to translate everything for us, she saw my photos too and said that I´m pretty.

At first when babito talk with her about me she thought that it doesn´t make sense and that it won´t work, but our love is so strong, mi babito was just listening but he never gave up and tried to calm down mum saying that we´re gonna make everything that we can to be together forever.

Mum after all this long conversation finally decided that if we can reach that dream and finally meet each other and get married she won´t refuse our decision and she´s gonna accept me like a new daughter. Babito and mum spent a nice week shopping, cooking, cleaning and talking about many things that they couldn´t do before, he always shared their photos with me telling me about every detail that happens with them, he made me feel like if I was there with him.

Saddly the week ends and mum had to return to home, that day my babito was sad and finally when mum leave the house they cried, I felt so sad for them, I wanted to be there with him to hug him and dry his tears but I couldn´t.

I realized that my love miss mum very much, I hope one day she can live with us in the same house, teaching me how to cook all the dishes that babito likes and talking with me about my sweetie baby and his childhood, I know finally one day she will decide that and we never are gonna separate again.

His voice..
he is special, he can convert a sad day into a joyful day, making magic with his voice he can everything, I do not know how many songs he has dedicated to me but he always manages to rob me a smile, I remember when sometimes I felt sad after talk with him everythig was better for me, I felt hope that the problems would go and he will be here with me.
I wanna give him a surprise and sing for him too one day, to make him feel my love and that I´m thankful for all the love that he makes me feel.
Now the time is going fast, we have 2 months already, 2 months full of love, who says that asians guys are cold and if so then i has met the most affectionate and warm asian guy that I could meet, even when he is not right next to me I can feel all his love in every word, every song, every kiss that he sent me, the way he looks at me, how much he wants me, and all the time that he spends with me.
At first I was so sad waiting to the next morning to talk with my sweetie again, missing him so much, and when and when morning comes the first thing I did was grab my phone and see if he sent any message. We fought many times because of that, I wanted talk until late but he wanted sleep, or he wanted to send me to sleep, but I was like a naughty baby always asking for a little more, cause I just had a couple hours with my love. I remember the first time that I told him "I love you" he didn´t know what to answer me, at first I did not know why but the he told me that none of his girlfriends had told him "I love you" before to him, I was surprised, how can it be possible? if they were his girlfriends, how they had never told him these sweet words that is in the mouth of every person in love, he said that for him was fine cause he was just happy loving them and no matter if they say it or not. But I made him realize that you need to hear it when someone loves you these sweet words. in every kinf of relationship you need to hear it to know it, cause it´s part of the feelings and the moment. He was in shock, saying that i was so different from them, cause he was feeling for first time how it feels to be loved, and since then he is used to hear that and answer the same, cause we love very much.

Why do u love me? 

Officially being a couple I wanted to know why you liked me so much, that was my last day of trip and after preparing my suitcase I spent all morning chatting with you, my best friend and my love. Suddenly we started talking about the future, about changes in our body and you said that if I was thin or fat you´re still gonna love me that u just want me healthy and happy, finally that´s the most important I think, because our love is not based on physical beauty since we met through a screen, were only our feelings that made us fall in love and that's the most beautiful of our love.

You know what? I think I am gonna keep loving you even without hair and fatty, and since you like soft things you can keep hugging me in the future and sleeping on my tummy ;)

One of the things I like most about you is that in your eyes I'm the most beautiful, as you say I am an angel who fell from heaven to make you happy, and as I told you for me there are not two like you, you are unique and special in every part of your being, so attractive and charming as only you can be, my boy man, muack...

Also I did not know that you would become a fan of my father, flattering him so much saying that he is your superstar hahaha..and you say that when you know you're gonna talk a lot with him about me and my childhood, what a shame I think, but who can stop you when u wanna do something right?

I remember also our first fight, when u call me kid cause I´m naive maybe casue I don´t have experience in love like you so that´s why I was very angry that night, I don´t wanna feel that u are treating me as a kid, I am a woman in every sense from head to toe, but that was just the beggining of our love, many argues and fights for stupid things, because this is love, discuss and reconcile with kisses and I love you, we cling to love making it stronger, because when there is love everything is possible yet, there is still hope.

Happy Birthday

A special day for me arrived, plus it was my birthday soon it would have another meaning, when I opened my eyes you wished me a happy birthday although there was no cake, gifts or money. I was happy because I had the persons that I love the most with me and one of them is you.

We spent all morning chatting, laughing, joking and planning things for when we meet for the first time, as always you began to ask words in Spanish and I translated them. You said that you liked your English teacher when you were studying and now you love your Spanish teacher who is your girlfriend, I was amazed at about what you said and I wondered when he asked me to be his girlfriend? but you told me that maybe you misunderstood my words "Te quiero" and to forget about it but I didn´t want pass up this opportunity because it was the first time that you told me what was you really wanted so I asked u to keep talking about it.

It was like music to my ears finally hear you say "I want you to be my girlfriend, I wanna try my best to get us together although it's hard" at that time I wanted cry for all the emotions contained in my chest and in my stomach like butterflies and adrenaline when you fall from a slide but this time those were stronger than ever for all this what came out of my mouth was thank you, thank you for coming into my life, thank you for making me smile, thank you for being my best friend, my confidant and now my boyfriend, Te amo....

Although you were nervous that I could tell you no you had some confidence in you but I asked you: remember what u told me? that u don't believe in long distance relationship? and you said: Remember I'm a babo? U leave me no options, my heart is taken away I have no choice and I'm ur prisoner now. I spent the best birthday of my life, now we have a long way but together we will do everything necessary to make our dream come true!!!

A trip

 When I told you that I would travel the first thing you asked me was... with who? xD I realized that you were jealous when I told you that I would go with a guy hahaha..poor babito

I thought it´s normal because you like me then I just tried to calm your jealousy telling you the truth, it had passed many weeks that I didn´t see my sister and I missed her, like a father with many love you asked me to keep myself warm and take care of me and you began to find out how it was the city that I would travel, I never met a guy so interested in my activities like you.

I remember that one of your nights before my trip was the first time you sang me a song, I didn´t know that you sang so well until then maybe because I liked your voice or song but I wanted to hear you sing again. and that you just sing for me all your songs from then on.

When I was traveling I had many things in mind I felt that this trip would bring many new things in my life, I was one day unable to contact you and my mood wasn´t good I missed you a lot and I wanted to talk with you. until the next when finally I could contact you, you had sent me many messages crying, complaining, thinking I had forgotten you and that I didn´t wanna talk with you anymore, I started to laugh because you seemed a resentful child and I wanted to calm your concern immediately also I was dying to talk to you but I didn´t tell you that.

My days exploring Ancash became more attractive because every morning you were with me and wake me up with  Is my baby awake? You do not know how I felt with that words, very loved...
although I really enjoyed my trip I wanted to go home soon and see you on skype and because you always were asking what day I would comeback, It was as if when I comeback at home you would be waiting for me with open arms.
Fortunately the days passed quickly and came Friday....

Awaken 

The following days were happier than the first at his side, always trying to stay awake to talk with me, you told me you liked to talk a lot with me that could stop sleeping just to stay longer talking with me.

You became my best friend telling me many things about your life that only a good friend deserve to know because we had become so close that I also decided to trust you many parts of my life that nobody knew just you. Like a little girl I opened my eyes when you said something interesting and laughing with your nonsense, and I was the first who heard your laugh although you said that everyone thinks it sounds silly I thought it was one of the most beautiful and contagious laughs that I ever heard xD.

Although you felt sad cause you couldn´t hear my laugh I was happy because that was soon to change, every day you spoke to me with love maybe I didn´t see your eyes, but I knew that sparkled every time you talked me, How do I know? Cause I know you.

Until came the day when you gave me a hint about what you felt, "don´t make me love you" you said, and I didn´t know what to say, just a hahaha came out of my mouth, I thought you were kidding cause I do not even thought that you could get to love me, so I let it go. But your persistence made me wake up, thanks to you cause when you mentioned the word "love" my heart started to beat very fast and I wanted cry, many emotions ran through my body from the inside out and my breathing sped up. at that time I had opened my eyes and my heart you showed it to me, it was full of you and I had not realized, I was the babo in that time. 

"Te quiero" has many meanings I left you that night thinking what means, it was the shy way to let you know that I also felt something for you, good night babito I thought.

 Sad Day?

And on a normal day everything can change, a sad day when the person that you like can hurt    you suddenly you feel that a "hello" changed everything, the way that I met you can be silly but I also believe that love has many forms, different colors and sensations.

watching the picture of new new melted me, but also I knew the guy behind that picture was even more beautiful. Your words were hard when I told you about my old love, who could have a long distance relationship? that's impossible! you told me. I felt sorry because I realized that your heart was hurt, but even knowing what you thought I wanted to continue knowing you.

Cheerful, fun, interesting, talkative, warm, all these words went through my mind and the days around you made you keep in a corner of my heart =D.

 When I met you I felt your enthusiasm, like a child happy to have found a candy, you kept talking about my eyes "big beautiful eyes", but why? why suddenly you disappeared? I did not realize your importance in my life until that day. Sending you messages like where are you? why don't you answer me? if you do not wanna talk with me at least say goodbye, your answer was sad and disturbing even if you gave me a reason I felt that u didn´t like to talk with me.

So I decided to stop talking with you, give you time to think and feel better if something bad happened in your life. But spent two or three weeks and you did not talk with me.

One night I couldn´t sleep and was very stressed I wanted cry because also I missed you, being honest I was who wrote again to you, perhaps it had to happen so then you realized how much I wanted you back.

Feel you back in my life changed something inside me, I knew you wouldn´t go again and I had found my best friend.